DAY OFF = HAPPY LINDSAY

I am so happy to have today off. I was thinking about it last night and I believe I would have wanted to die if I had to go into work today. I seriously need a break. This school year is awful. I'm beginning to hate my job and that's not good. I don't feel like I am able to teach my kids because I constantly need to be worrying about other things like paperwork and just other bull shit. I have WAY too much on my plate this year and I feel like I am working so hard and can never get ahead. Every teacher in my school has told me that they can't believe the load I've been given this year and that they feel bad for me. On top of having way too many kids, we have three new programs to learn and implement, all while filling in holes that these programs have to make sure all of our standards are met so that our kids can pass those stupid f-ing standardized tests. Since we didn't make AYP last year, we are on a watch list, which means administration is harping on us BAD. If my kids don't pass that stupid test, I might as well just quit. I'm sorry but I can't help the fact that those tests are ridiculous and don't really even test the knowledge of the kids, but rather on how well they can read a question and take a test. Ugh, don't even get me started. Anyway, I'm just glad to be off today.

I have a little over a month left until my track break starts again. I'll have 4 or 5 weeks off I think. I'm going home for a week, Robbie's coming here for a week, and I'm teaching a math academy another week. So really I don't have too much time off at home to relax and do nothing. Oh well.

My stomach is in knots right now because I just submitted my application for grad school. Just the thought of going back to school makes me want to vomit. I took a class the last two weeks that was two nights a week for 3 hours and it was awful. This program I can either do everything online or wait for a cohort to start and go one weekend a month for 21 months I think. The weekend is Friday night for 4 hours, Saturday all day and Sunday all day. Those weekends would suck ass, but at least I wouldn't be sitting in class every week. I'm trying to stay positive here.

I'm just in a crappy mood today. I need to go run or something to clear my mind. Jodi and I are supposed to go to lunch today since we both have the day off. We were thinking about going to the Melting Pot if it's open. We've been wanting to try it and eating unhealthy sounds like a great plan right now :)